Never say never

never say never

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Z5-P9v3F8w&ob=av3e


sometime we tend to keep up in something we believe it is good and worthy for us.
sometime we really felt stupid after making such decision.

But never the less we gonna to press on~ because there always something good going to happen in our life :D

Enjoy life yo!!

A New Kick Start

Everyday is a new kick start for everyone.

No matter how tough yesterday was, we still have today to go on.
As a matter of fact, as long we still can breath in and out, we have HOPE.

Regardless any hardship we faced daily we need to keep our motivation going and strike to achieve a better person today. Keep growing Keep learning Keep exploring yourself

And you will find much much more beautiful things in this world.
You will never experience this if you not stepping the first giant step. A step that will change our life coast ultimately.

Therefore live this life as today is your last day. NO regret.

If we look back at time, we will see ourselves as different person. A person that had grow mature in a sense of emotional and mentally.

Start Your Each Day with a Great Smile at Yourself- I bet you will feel great! :D

Until then aliyos.. Have a Great Day everyone.

How many days I left?

Dunno how I end up surfing at my blog I used once a time before with the title I'm the beloved one.

Today my mood really down because I fight with my mum. A serious one and hurt each other so much. I really felt stupid and disobedience to her. I felt regret that I did that. My just loose my temper and shout at her.

Recently my emotion really unstable and my mind is not in control. Somehow I felt I like a walking dead man. Felt useless, weak, hopeless, and want to end this life sooner. In the other way, I telling myself I can't stay like this. Chee Oh, calling my name... What should I do? Who can help me to go through all this difficult time? I'm suffer mentally each day... a victim of my family violence.
I hate this home... hate it so much till want to destroy it all together...
but I just can't do it... because I knew the consequence of it. Everyone will suffer more.

Who am I now? Losing my confidence and hope in life ....
I'm nothing but a useless 24 years old guys...
fall down so hard... why all this happening in my life? Pressure all surrounding me and I just can't loose them. Why? How? The feeling of hopeless in life really bad.
Seeing other friends are doing good except me... why I'm so stupid till like this?
Will someone tell me that I'm a stupid which do the wrong decision?
Choosing to do insurance at the 1st time ... naive of me thought I will have time freedom.
And I can have more time with mum... but somehow things just not like what I think.
My career fall down sharply and I really hard to accept this fact that I throwing my money into sea. Almost rm5k I wasted and now still in the process to claim it back.
And the priceless time I invested in this.

Seeing back the situation I'm in now... the place I live now... and relationship with my family members... my mum, my dad, my bro, my sis, my 2nd sis... 5 person of them..
I felt really hard to communicate with them and live with them together.
And it gave me the pressure that I can't overcome it in a short time.
Every day challenge me to face my mum's situation which is a sick old person...
keep nagging, complaining.... and giving all the negative input to me. The world already is negative and people need to live it hard. Why you just can't accept the fact?

So naive of me that my present will eventually help my mum but the fact that is me the problem. I'm the problem that haven't solve yet. I haven't learn my lesson yet and create more problem for my family. Sometime I can't even trust myself and my family members.
Felt like all are cheating on me.
Why I'm facing this situation all alone? Somebody know this but they didn't know my feeling.
Even my fall from the bicycle, I also can keep quite. So stupid am I. What wrong with me actually?
My mind is stop functioning well and think positively. All the life problems were mixing all together. I just need to ask for help. HELP!!!!
HELP!!! HELP ME!!! SAVE ME!!!
Anyone that sincerely want to help me? I'm going to do stupid thing soon. Life is again and again pushing me to the cliff. When I almost want to give up in life, God saved me.
Life is Hard!! Where is my joy, happiness, strength and power of love?

Why I just can't think outside the box? Why?
I'm doubt with it and myself. All the things I learned before this are now put into practice.
Should I just let go myself and giving myself a chance again to make it right for myself?
My journey still far but no one can tell me how long will I live?
All will soon leave this world one day. What is the point using up all the resources in this world for our own selfish desire and destroying the earth?

I can tell that my body is weak now... weaker that last time...
No much time left for me. Coughing, flu, and the toxic inside my body getting into something worst. I felt like vomiting out blood from my throat. My heart beat are slow and weak.
Nobody know about this because I choose to not to tell.

Getting skinner and skinner each day passed by...
Eating the food that slowly killing myself.
Sleep so much till I felt like dying...
Smiling face was not longer is my facial expression.
Only left a numb face all the time.
Why?
Do I like myself now? The self-image I have now is a worst one... doing the things I hate and dislike most. Just loose control of my life now. The life I have now is worthless.

Where is my strength to carry on?
What is the truth in my life?
What are the purpose I'm living in this world?

Someone tell me please...

My destiny? My life are falling apart like shit...
What am I really want in my life is something that I can't achieve now.
A happy family.

Another brand new day for me.

Thank you x1000 for giving me another brand new day to go strike for my career and meeting great people!!

Thank you that I still able to endure the physical tiredness that keep tempting me.
Heheh~~ Looking for tonight as a sweet time to watch my anticipating movie of the year 2009--- 2012.

Thank you for manage to finish Amanda Pang's DOB greeting card within 90 mins then can write this blog too. haha~~
Going to have lunch now~ Cya!

Great & tiring day

This morning rush to office to submit a form.
Then visited Pastor Than for signature and visiting thing. I found that Pastor Than really quite when I not talking to him. If I talked about ministry or God's news, his eye will open big big.

Maybe I need to find more topic to understand him and his ministry.
After having lunch together then Simon also join us.
Have a talk about our business growth and target. Pastor Than was left out quite some time.
Generation Gap I think.

Soon later, I went to HOTPRINT to collect the concert flyer but it end up with wrong output of the file. Really felt pity about this.
Need to redo and send to Kit Fong again and make sure this time is correct and it can be collected on next Wednesday and distribute on Thursday onwards.

Before this I was able to make a short presentation with YIH KUN about my company saving plan~ Multicash. It was good respond and I found that some people really test our patient and sincerity in serving them first.

Thanks God for revealing guidance and wisdom for me to understand more about His plan for me.

16.11.09 MOtivation lesson~

Thanks God for giving me a hints and show me the way that I can walk back on track again.
Yeah!!!

God is good all the time!!!

I'm the beloved one.

I'm the beloved one.

We love because he first loved us. 1 John 4:19